I'm quite tired of all the things happening around me, really. I mean, sure I appreciate and enjoy doing what I do, but sometimes it just seems a little too overwhelming, and to find a sanctuary is kind of hard nowadays, especially when your mum is telling you every 5 minutes to stop watching ____ when you so obviously are not.

I doubt what I'm facing is anywhere near what the SLC OT is facing, but I guess in it's own respective right, it's almost on the same level. Expectations, unfulfilled promises, all these things come crashing down all of a sudden. Perhaps it's because it's already the first half of the year, and still so many questions are left unanswered, and so much hopes are still held.

Guess I shouldn't complain though, since there are many people I can turn to...or so I think. Things are so blur nowadays I guess, I don't really know who to trust, or exactly what to do. Blind trust placed in favour of "curing" things, or maybe hardline stances so respect can be commanded. No offence, and not being sarcastic, but really, I don't think they will work. Maybe not now, maybe not in the short term, but hopefully they will...soon.

All these seem very bleak, and yeah, I know. I won't deny it...they are. But I guess all of us are entitled to times like this...isn't it?

On a happier note (hopefully), picked up the letter Izumi had written to me when he stepped down. It was inspirational, at the very least, and it gave me hope that things would, and can, be better.

Hope...would it be really that gullible to take it and say that it's ours? I hope not.