I'm quite tired of all the things happening around me, really. I mean, sure I appreciate and enjoy doing what I do, but sometimes it just seems a little too overwhelming, and to find a sanctuary is kind of hard nowadays, especially when your mum is telling you every 5 minutes to stop watching ____ when you so obviously are not.

I doubt what I'm facing is anywhere near what the SLC OT is facing, but I guess in it's own respective right, it's almost on the same level. Expectations, unfulfilled promises, all these things come crashing down all of a sudden. Perhaps it's because it's already the first half of the year, and still so many questions are left unanswered, and so much hopes are still held.

Guess I shouldn't complain though, since there are many people I can turn to...or so I think. Things are so blur nowadays I guess, I don't really know who to trust, or exactly what to do. Blind trust placed in favour of "curing" things, or maybe hardline stances so respect can be commanded. No offence, and not being sarcastic, but really, I don't think they will work. Maybe not now, maybe not in the short term, but hopefully they will...soon.

All these seem very bleak, and yeah, I know. I won't deny it...they are. But I guess all of us are entitled to times like this...isn't it?

On a happier note (hopefully), picked up the letter Izumi had written to me when he stepped down. It was inspirational, at the very least, and it gave me hope that things would, and can, be better.

Hope...would it be really that gullible to take it and say that it's ours? I hope not.

Two words: fuck you.

Damn you. Can't you do anything right, like seriously? Fine, so you want your own space. Fine, so you think that you should be selfish sometimes. Fine, maybe you are right. But you know what, I don't care what you think about this, really. If you don't want to tell us the truth, fine. If you want to keep some stuff from us, fine. But if you think that playing some retarded mind games, or stupid things will actually make things any better, dream on. You can go lead that life you want now. Go ahead.

And YOU. You're no better. Taking sides, is it really worth it? I mean, we are supposed to exemplify things that are GOOD, not things that happen to be destructive to an organisation. Fuck you very much.

Yin Yang circle is actually a horny symbol. Trust me on that.

It's kind of sad when everything around you starts spiraling out of proportion. Not just sad I guess, but kind of depressing. I mean, when they all seem to somehow converge at one frigging point, and this point happen to be something that I do NOT want to go to, since it always foreshadows the end, why wouldn't it be depressing?

Although, admittedly, these kind of things happen. Yeah, they do. Unfortunately for all of us. This sucks. The point which separates no return and saving grace is really scary. Threading in such waters...not somewhere anyone would like to be now, isn't it?

On a side note, and to more happy things, HiC Meeting today was...fun! (:
Ms Ting + Mr Toh combo = pwnz your azzz. (:

Sigh...when all these fade, will anything still remain? I wonder. Really.

A new start.

Frankenstein Facade...

How apt.



Lady GaGa's voice is amazing!